Friday, 28 September 2007

Bardly Wonderings-Poetic Musing

More poetic stuff i wrote, this was a while back but it needs to be published eventually! If you sick of it look away now...oh and yes its mindless Dragan so hence i dedicate it to you ;-)

Together we stand, Divided we fall.

Now we're alone and we shall see how we fare
everything seems difficult and a dare.
Today is the day, the first day of dark and dull and dispair.

What once began must now end again.

The ode to the sad side of this life has begun and ended the ode to joy.

I lost it all, all through my own doing.
No tears to run rampant rapidly flowing.

Even though towards the end it was nought but battle
i still miss that burning desire and steady mettle.

Now that your really gone my eyes that were once closed are now truly open.
How i wish i could turn it all back and never set this in motion

But wishes are but empty reflections in a clear pool
Which, when we reach out to take hold realise are nothing but fool.

I have chosen my path to tread.
So must i march on without dread

Monday, 24 September 2007

Are'nt they Beautiful

Finally! It’s here. Mazozo and MJ present the top ten gaming gals of all time! Yes it was conceptualised ages ago (by yours truly) but due to certain people (names shan’t be named) the article is way over due but flip it. Here is how it works, we collectively picked a list of gals then we decided to give them our own order rank (mostly cause we couldn’t agree on who goes where), so with out further delay here it goes:

Ten: Princess Pea
ch- "Dear Mario i've baked you a cake..." Those words are burned immortal into my memory. Peach was, and is always cute and a constant damsel in distress. Who could resist? We had to save her in the orginal Mario brothers! For sheer cuteness she goes down as ten.

Nine: Cammy- Remember a game called Street Fighter? This was the orginal hot beat em up chick
appearing from SF2 onwards i always picked her for her looks rather then ability.The pic here is an anime one, bit exaggerated but you'll get the idea!

Eight:Rayne-She featured in a game called blood reign. Not a brilliant game per se but try this.
To recharge her power she used to jump on a victim, wrap both her legs around him, and while biting him on the neck, moan, loudly, for long. Very hot, she deserves a place just for that.

Seven:Lara Coft- What list of hot gaming gals would be complete without her huh?The orginal geek boy pin up Tomb Raider had fan boys salavating from day one.Eventually they created a skin so she would be naked as you played the game with her.The twin cannons get her into 7, she's aged a bit and there has not been a tomb raider game in ages.

Six:Rachel-Ok technically she was not a playable character but in Need for Speed Underground i waited with baited breathe for the cut scenes invloving her. She's hot and the only reason she's not higher is the fact i couldn't play with her...

Five:Eva-Another non playable character, the chick saves Snake's life in Metal Gear Solid 3. Definately tough in my books is this one. She was pretty too!A perfect 5 just not nasty enough to make it higher.

Four:Kasumi- Hailing from the DOA series there is just one thing i remember when i first played Dead or Alive with Kasumi "Damn look at those bounce" Yes people they bounce alot as you fight with her.Its been like that from the 1st DOA right till the latest!Not to mention the movie of her in a steam bath LOL.Just for the bounce she makes it into 4. oh and she got good moves to boot.

Three:Rinoa- She's beautiful,1 of my favourites ever.FF8 was worth it just to see Rinoa dance in the fmv with Squall at the Seed Graduation.I love her.The love story of FF8 made it worth it, too bad Squall ends up with Rinoa...Sigh

Two:Sophitia- A hot gal with a short sword and small shield dressed as a greek goddess, what more can you ask for?The Soul Calibre series of games always rocked in my humble opinion it was the best series of fighting games ever, mostly because you fought with weapons. Sophia was one of the staple characters of the game from Soul Edge and though i prefered to use Killik(i'll beat anyone with him) and Rock during game time. I used to love looking at Sophitia. A very close 2.

One:Kaileena- The main evil character in Prince of Persia: Darkness within. The Cut scenes were wow. She was a babe. A really, really hot babe. i'll let the picture speak for itself. I cringed as a killed her with the prince :-(

Monday, 06 August 2007

Have a laugh

I Finally went through some pictures i had on campus emails here are some of the funny ones i found!
Every Office should have one of these:
Seems we not the only one's looking forward too friday! I can't wait

Joke of the Day-Guys take note

The Test

Apparently a True story: I was happy. My girlfriend and I had been dating for over ayear, and so we decided to get married. My parents helped us in everyway; my friends encouraged me, and my girlfriend? She was a dream! There wasonly one thing bothering me, very much indeed, and that one thing was heryounger sister.

My prospective sister-in-law was twenty years of age, wore tight mini skirts and low cut blouses. She would regularly bend down whennear me and I got many a pleasant view of her underwear. It had to be deliberate. She never did it when she was near anyone else. One daylittle sister called and asked me to come over to check the wedding invitations.She was alone when I arrived. She whispered to me that soon I was to bemarried, and she had feelings and desires for me that she couldn't overcome and didn't really want to overcome. She told me that shewantedto make love to me just once before I got married and committed my life toher sister.

I was in total shock and couldn't say a word. She said,” I’mgoing upstairs to my bedroom, and if you want to go ahead with it just come up and get me." I was stunned. I was frozen in shock as I watchedher go up the stairs. When she reached the top she pulled down her pantiesand threw them down the stairs at me.

I stood there for a moment, then turned and went straight to the front door. I opened the door and stepped out of the house. I walked straight towards my car. My future father-in-law wasstanding outside. With tears in his eyes he hugged me and said, "We arevery happy that you have passed our little test. We couldn't ask for a better man for our daughter. Welcome to the family."The moral of this story is:""Always keep your condoms in your car."

Thursday, 12 July 2007

Its been way too long

Yes hello all you peons, Denizens of the night, Fairies and general people og blog land. I hath returned from my jet setting across the country (well at least to dubs)! I have been busy busy busy conncocting a story for you lovely people as well as just being to lazy to blog. I blame the dstv. Yes and my holiday has been officially ruined with news that i will have to study!So what have i been up to hey? Well in my journeys and wanderings as a bard (a lonely pursuit indeed a story for another time) i have met the lone writer, Got my ass kicked by MJ in a night of games and realised that i'm gone too old for gunston (vodacom beach africa to you youngsters).All that and more! But i digress! What is the point of this post besides a general run down of hat i've done recently?Honestly i don't know its late and i had to post something and this is the half assed attempt i came up with. I've just completed my end of the triple way post thats coming your way soon by mj an the K man and myself! So i tired and irritable (it was a long post) now i just need to wait for those two bums to finish and we can post and thrill you good people of blog once more!Nways ppl im tired a i wish i could ramble more but i'm gonne colapse on this keyboard!

P.S. Heroes ROCK
P.P.S. MJ i will beat you at some video game someday that thrashing was not fair!Altho you gotta admit twas not bad for a person who just picked up the xbox!

Peace out

Song for the moment: Creed- Stand here with me

On the way too Durban...

We saw...
Give our regards too Bala and Peru dude!Indians i tell

Thursday, 21 June 2007

And i'm Saying...

"with the windows down and the system up, Screaming: i just don't give a Fuck!"

Wednesday, 20 June 2007


There's a song by staind which has very simple yet serious important words in it. I can't remenber the title but i remember the words in a faded sort of way: Respect for your FAMILY, Respect for your FRIENDS, Respect EVERYONE, Respect is EVERYTHING.

They have never been more right, respect is everything, yet its something that is sorely lacking today!Many problems stem from the simple fact that people lack respect for others and that they don't treat people with the correct manner and in the right way.

Respect for your family- without it and without them your nothing. Yet spoilt brats everyday challenge there parents and bring them to their knees on a regular basis. Leave alone the spoilt brats even the older kids do it. Backchat their parents and trouble them to a point where they can't take it anymore. It comes down to the fact that they have an attitude and no respect. If they did they would do such things!Parents need to be accorded a certain amount of respect by almost any standard.

It comes down to attitude and how you treat other people.Just because you have a strong opinion on someone it does'nt mean that you must tell it to them to there faces if you don't know them! Always remember the old addage if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all. Much less if you hardly know the person! Keep those thoughts to yourself. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, true enough, however that does not mean you impose it on them!

With respect it means respect for everyone not only friends and family but those people you don't know as well. It means treating them with respect everywhere and in all situations. With that comes manners and decorum. You have no right to treat people the way you want just to get a laugh or two out. Think if the situations where reversed then what? Would you feel so comfortable if people insulted your family and friends based on the colour of your skin or your religion loudly while in your presence? I don't think so

Human beings make me sick. The way some people can degrade and debase females is appauling to say the least!That's someone's sister or daughter or wife or mother your speking about what if it where your sister or mother then what?

There are just ways off doing things and ways of treating people its just common good sense and it stems from respect. With out your nothing and don't say screw the world sometimes you got to give a shit and do things the right way.If not out of respect for others out of respect for your religion for it says in islam that we should treat those around us with respect and courteousy and if you cant respect a command of god then who can you respeect?Ask yourself that.

Thursday, 10 May 2007


In light of recent hype....
Enjoy..... ;-)

Fun Blog Stuff!

So i found all this on MJS blogs and decided to go wild heh here goes! Click on the post to see it fully!

You Are Iceman

You tried to live a normal life, but it just wasn't possible
A bit of a slacker, you rather tell jokes than cultivate your powers

Powers: turning self and others into ice, making ice weapons, becoming nearly invisible

Oh yayy Ice Man lol damn i prefer the iron dude

Your Kisses Are Medium-Hot

Your kisses are definitely sexy, but you're not about to make anyone gasp for air.
You take it slow and steady... and you ramp things up when you get the right signals.
Your kissing style is adaptable and adept. And people who kiss you love it!

Hmmm i need to test this one more... Any volunteers!? ;-)

You Are The Hulk

Super strong and super scary, you were never meant to be a superhero.
You're not really into saving the world. And the world better get out of your way.

I would Have preferred the punisher but hey Hulk is cool

You Are a Lemon Cake

Strong, sexy, and overpowering.
You know who you are, and you're not afraid to show the world your fabulous self.
You're confident, charming, and extremely popular.

Hmmmm caaakkkeee....

Your Mind is NC-17 Rated

You're mind is so filthy... you should should be washing every part of you out with soap.
If your thoughts can go dirty, they do. Almost everything is NC-17 to you!

Lol this i knew... ;-)

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well.
An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly.
You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view.
A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary.

You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

Def me!

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

So sue me i never had a journal before!

Your Quirk Factor: 62%

You're so quirky, it's hard for you to tell the difference between quirky and normal.
No doubt about it, there's little about you that's "normal" or "average."

I would rather be this then normal!

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen
Or lend a shoulder to cry on
You're there through thick and thin
Many people consider you their "best friend"!

My only Blessing and my only curse!

Its Been A While

It's Been awhile since i have posted i guess i have just been busy with stuff and have had no time what so ever too get on to this damn thing!Oh well!Nways I hope everyone is okay

This will be my last post for awhile exams start in just under three weeks and i have so not started studying!Lol so i need to get started on that

As for the personal life well thats getting better, slowly. Im glad that one is done and gone somethings no matter how much you wish the opposite become toxic. Hence the title of this post if anyone knows music then they'll know that this is the title of a Staind song which has alot too it. Here are the Lyrics...

"It's Been A While"

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

Anyways all and all things go on and so does life. Went to the movies with Mary Jane and sibling the other day where i was peer pressured into eating mac Ds Bad chioce mac D's sucks the burger was putrid yucky bleh now i know why i hate the big yellow arch so much.

Anyways Ppl peace out

Wednesday, 25 April 2007


Hmmm here at campus on of the many drives as most of you know is the need to satisfy hunger!And boy do i get hungry!

Now before in the past i used to loathe eating at campus and stuck to my trusted pie from the cafe.However this year i have discovered el dorado...

As many of you know by now, the former veg aunty has sold up too Uncle Cas and what was once only vegetarian cuisine is now both meat and vegetable! Now while veg aunties chips were good...Uncle Cas1s chips are better but however i digress.

Enter the golden Lamb. It's my regular order from Uncle Cas now and i think it should be NAMED after me!

One mutton burger with cheese and chips, All sauces and All salad Uncle Cas!THANK YOU

This burger is divine.Its warm,delicious,juicy,HUGE and most of all IT FILLS ME(ask my friends, they call me the human vacume, this is a hard thing to do...) LOL it is a heaven sent, Mana from the GODS!It is exactly what it says..A mutton burger with one huge ass patty, a healthy serving of chips in the burger and one good slice of cheese; all smothered in t-sauce,mayo,mustard and chilli sauce.All for R13

Now i usually reserve eating on campus for two occassions.It's either friday (special day come on) or cos i got up late and never had breakfast.However uncle cass's burgers have found me breaking the above mentioned rules on morer then one occasion!I blame my recent weight gain on these!But god ther soo good...I think last week i missed breakfast the entire week on purpose hehe.

It's official I'm addicted

Friday, 20 April 2007

Just Friends and "Just Friends"

Ever Heard that phrase? Im sure in day to day dealings with people we have all heard it at one time or another. Now i know that people ,by nature,are generally curious beings but sometimes i think, especially in our community, that we are a little too curious for our own good.

Case in point. As a muslim guy the minute I spend the significant part of an afternoon talking to a girl alone i am immedaitley interrogated by friends and acquintances even whether there is something going on between the two of us!Everything is not as it seems people and appearances are deceiving. As a whole its mostly muslim people! What especially annoys me is the asking of questions later.

Friend: So who was that girl i saw you sitting with just now?

Me: No one, she's just a friend.

Friend: Oh yeah sure she is. You plotting her aren't you?

Me: Nooo she's just a friend!

At this point friend usually rolls eyes and smiles to him/herself (often accompanied by shaking of head). Now certainly its cool to know what going on in your friends life But People i would tell you'll if anything else was going on! Lol the phrase just friends means just that. Just friends! Oh you people of little faith sigh!

The whole assumption thing has got to stop because in the long run it causes alot of damage and unneccesary explaining o my part least of all on the girl's part. You know what they say about assumptions being the mother of all...


Wednesday, 11 April 2007

When your gone

I only know that i can't change.
Everything else doesn't stay the same.

The world, and you, continues to turn and revolve
While i lie stagnant and refuse to evolve.

I'm stuck in a place, empty and cold, where happiness is devoid.
that elusive creature, which i once possessed, which i can now only avoid.

As i walk through the night and stare up into the dark sky,
the once bright, comforting stars stare at me hollow, and i produce many a sigh.

My purpose is gone, my zest lost.
once it's gone then only can i calculate it's true cost.

The fire that once burned inside of me is extinguished.
But now all has vanished and in your eyes i am no longer distinguished.

Care which once warmed and nourished my soul
has now left and turned too distant disdain and dole.

The burden i've placed upon myself feels too heavy
without you here by my side to keep me steady.

Sad stuff I know. But hey paper is a good outlet. Wrote this awhile back but it had to be published or at leas posted on my site!Nways enjoy

Arb Post a.ka. IM BACK

Guess what?? I'm Back Again lol tell your friends!

Nowwww this was suppose to be another posting of one of my really sad "somebody shoot me" poems however i have had mercy on you poor peeps and as such i have decided to post that later during the week.

I have not posted for sooo Long! Why you people may ask? Well to tell the truth really i don't know, all i know is that im glad to be back.

Currently i am back after the long weekend in Ladysmith. Glad too see my Family again. LOL my little bro baked me a cake! LOL big up to the not so little, little dude, he makes a mean cake! The town has not changed since i was last here...(suprise suprise who would have thought huh?) however the peace which once consoled my soul is now becoming to deafening with my thoughts hmmm...

So how was the long weekend? Well it was brilliant i parked off with my friends the entire weekend and that was cool we did the usual: eating out, creating, movies etc etc.

On a similar note my uncle form JHB was down in durbs that long weekend. He came with his entire in-laws family. I ended up going for supper with him twice that weekend, once on saturday and once on sunday. Now this uncle of mines rocks his pretty young about thirty something and his also the only uncle which does not mind me smoking in fron of him! Anyways i was invited by him for supper on saturday at the Al-Mahrani (formerly arabian nights) on the beach front. Now poor unsuspecting me thought cool beans supper with the uncle.WRONG!Uncle Ahmed neglected to tell me that my aunty and her family were coming with.Now I know NO ONE in Aunty Khudaija's family!I only knew my uncle! To top it all off i had landed up with the entire family! There were like forty or fifty people there!Don't get me wrong normally i'm confident however these dude where loud and had that whole family thing down! Eish remind me that when i get married i will have to go thriugh that continously (Shudder). Hmmm on a lighter note Aunty does have some really pretty girls in her family. Pretty JHB gals who know how to dress and are smart.Wayyy outta my league but hey i can dream!(there were these three sisters triplets...). Lol but i did warm up too a couple of ppl after the supper and even shared a cigar with one of the uncles! Cue supper two this time Uncle Ahmed left his wife and kids at the family Braai and took me and his friend out to supper at 2GO where we waited for a table for half an hour but the food was good an the atmosphere i digged. Now, i was kinda hoping i would end up at the braai (to see aforementioned hot chicks) however uncle Ahmed noted my discomfort the day before and took me out instead. Damn!And i really wanted to get to know the family better!Oh well next time!

On the Sports Front: My team proceeded to qualify with ease for the semi's of the Champions League yesterday crusing past a tired Psv. YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE. It was not the most spectacular of games but still ample enough for me! Speaking of which it's nice to see english teams dominating so much. It's proof of the high calibre of football that the nation plays- too bad it can't translate too their national side! So it's on to Face Chelski in the semi's (Aside: Curse you MJ you blogwhore i can see you laughing as your rich blues who buy everything knocked out a better deserving Valencia) where we shall prevail(Again). Speaking of which did anyone see the hiding that Roma received?Shame poor Roma this is a team i fancied to win the competition this year and are a favourite italian team of mines!Kudos too the Red Devils i have always loathed you'll yet respected you'll as we'll (unlike the blues, whom i just loathe now)

On an end note i will be blogging about a niggling problem i have with perceptions of relationships with muslims shortly, keep a look out for this article later this week. It's got to do with being Just Friends! This one gotta stop lol.

Tag Your It (Again)

Hmmm i don't think i have been officially tagged yet but anyways it will come eventually. LOL ho said don't do things in advance huh?

1. Where is your cell phone? - next to me
2. Boyfriend/girlfriend? – wish she was
3. Hair? – Neat short Black
4. Your mother? – an amazing woman
5. Your father? – works very hard
6. Your favorite item(s)? – Cell Phone, Laptop, Lanyards
7. Your dream last night? – I don't dream
8. Your favorite drink? – Stoney Ginger Beer
9. Your dream guy/girl? – wish i knew
10. The room you are in? – The Family Room
11. Your fear? – is being rejected
12. What do you want to be in 10 years? – A Good Person
13. Who did you hang out with last night? - My Quiet Family
14. What are you not? – a pathetic quitter
15. Are you in love? - Yes i am
16. One of your wish list items? – An xbox 360
17. What time is it? – it is 12:32 am
18. The last thing you did? – Watched some soccer
19. What are you wearing? – Shorts, t-shirt, glasses
20. Your favorite book? – 20 000 Leagues Under the Sea
21. The last thing you ate? - Mag-Dahl, Fish, Potatoes
22. Your life? – a roller coaster
23. Your mood? – currently chilled out
24. Your friends? – are my rocks
25. What are you thinking about right now? - my life now
26. What are you doing at this moment? - having a snack
27. Your summer? – was very mixed
28. Your relationship status? - single. fortunately? unfortunately?
29. What is on your TV screen? – it's currently off
30. When is the last time you laughed? – ten minutes ago

I tag anyone whom has not been tagged yet

Saturday, 31 March 2007

Tag Your It

I do apologise to all those whom have tagged me....As per previous posts i've been preoccupied however i'm back on track! And hence i shall reply! You know what they say better late then never! On an aside very much love to Arshad, MJ and Zoe for stickin with the angry depressed "no body loves me" dude lol i hope i have filed him off for now...

Nways Here we go:

1. I have conversations in my head This usually occurs when i'm angry or have something important to say. or when i'm in dream mode These conversations are with real people. For example say im angry at someone and i never said what i wanted too at night before dosing off i'll play out an entire conversation with said person in my head. Don't know why but i do ohh and i usually play out the scene in my head at the sane time and the conversations can last for hours! and hours and hours

2. I sing out aloud unconsciously everywhere i go usually you can tell what i'm thinking by the song im singing etc etc

3. I don't dip anything.... Its wrong too dip . Biscuits where not meant to be soaked in tea or for that matter of fact buttered toast. It's wrong there should be some kind of fatwa against this.

4. I abhore kurri kitchri. It shall not pass my lips as long as i live. Nasty evil yellow stuff on yellow rice.

5. I like taking out zits and the nasty blackheads. Nasty i know hehe but yeah they fun to pop press!

Lol anyways some weird some strange some normal i guess comment away!

About Fate...

Don't you ever wonder why?

Events unfold the way they do by and by?

Pushing us closer towards each other

No matter what we do to stay away rather!

Maybe it's meant to be!

Accept the possibility and let your mind run free...

Would you intead fight a losing battle against Fate?

And let your mind be twisted away from the straight?

Peace is all you ever seek...

Yet you deny it when i present it to you and you begin to freak!

Who are we to reject what seems written out?

Will you only LISTEN when destiny has to scream and shout!

One Day this journey will end.

How it does is how you choose to comprehend...

*Words by me. Picture Called Hand of Fate from web author unknown. I wrote this a few days before this whole thing...In light of new circumstances have edited it a bit. However felt it necessary to post it anyways

Me In Pictures....

Tuesday, 27 March 2007

Excuse me, I need to purge

So now what? Where too from now? SO i've lost my best friend...(and all other conotations attached in the process). Questions arise...She said she's not going to be in my face for awhile and that she's doing it for my own good. Sigh the fact will remain i don't agree with her.. But after the rollercoaster that was last night i guess it is a semi mutual agreement. I guess Bilu was right we can't be best friends after all that was said and done. Big up to the wise man for forseeing what i could not. So now even if i do get over this (which i don't think is anytime soon) what will become of the great friendship that was once there? Did i just destroy it completely?Does friendship end because of thing like this? You know she told me the chemistry is just not there... but i don't know about that why do i feel as if it is? "something you can't produce". Normally i would go to her for advice about something like this but she's gone for now so i don't know where to turn. Who can help me now? We'll at least i hope she'll miss me in the very least. And (and i know this is selfish and mean and hurtful) but i hope she sees one day that i was right and she'll think to herself: god what did i do? i messed up. And if it's to late then to do anything then so be it. So when i get back from our 'holiday' what will the cards hold? Will i ever recieve any of that trust back or any of that friendship? Or will i be easily replaced while im gone?(as it seems a always am). Yeah i worry about things like that. She said i don't give others a chance but i don't want too the bar she set no one can surpass. You'll are probably thinking: oh my word his infatuated!duh! But i promise i'm not. I made a oath yesterday which i fully intend to keep even if it means hurting myself till my dying days. "i'll never be able to give you the happiness you deserve because i could never love you in the way you want me too" I would have been totally happy with an illusion of it. Am i going around in circles now? I guess she had to be cruel to be kind...And now? Now im sad...because i miss her and i hate fighting with her and it ruins my day and i can't concentrate on anything...Blink (my eternal sound track) kicks in:

"i'm so lost, i'm barely here. i wish i could explain myself, but words escape me, it's too late, to save me.You're too late. You're too late ...".

Your too late. Your too late to save me from this it's gone and its done and there is nothing that can be done about it!

"You're cold with disappointment, While I'm drowning in the next room, The last contagious victim of this plague between us, I'm sick with apprehension, I'm crippled from exhaustion, And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me. This is the first (thing I remember), Now it's the last (thing left on my mind) , Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper), An empty heart (replaced with paranoia), Where do we go (life's temporary), After we're gone (like new years resolutions), Why is this hard (do you recognize me), I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing)"

(Quotes from Stockholm Syndrome) i hope your reading them carefully! I'm a fighter and god this one is taking alot out of me! Guess what this one im not letting go

Friday, 16 March 2007

Part of Me

As promised here is what i had in my head a few days ago. Latency never goes away: This ones for you, you know who you are my friend

Part of Me

Part of me will always wonder why.
Howcome we never ever ever really really try.

One day i'll look upon you, upon that gilded stage.
and mutter to myself in twisted happiness and rage

Always so close and yet still truly far.
Like in the night sky, light from a dead star.

They say life ia a paradox, one story ends as another begins,
but yet this tired,weary mind would travel to a place where it's bearer wins.

And as you smile and laugh and pose as the cameras flash,
the epiphany that is my life strikes me in one big crash.

Part of me will always wonder why.
Howcome we never ever ever really really try.

Thursday, 15 March 2007

Ode To My Love

I pull you out gently and my eyes light up in anticipation

I stroke you lovingly and feel the smooth texture of you

I caress your creases out lovingly an tap u gently on your head...

I bring you up slowly, savouring every stolen moment,

and as you draw close to my lips my brain begins to fire every neutron.

I press you to my lips...drawing in breath deeply the heat builds.

as u begin to burn in pleasure you crackle softly as i take you in.

And so it goes each deep breath bringing me more and more pleasure.

Finally i take all of you in and remove your head from my lips.

I toss you aside satisfied

I love you.....

My cigarette! ;-)

Teach your kiddies this...

I concocted this piece this morning improve if you'll can:

Silly Sally Sue stepped into the garden where she spotted a path
Cake in hand she duly down the path did start!

She went down down down slowly till the end where she promptly found a snake!
who promptly rose up and proceeded to take the cake!

evil resides in me ;-)

My mind goes...

Tick toc frantic...
tick toc frantic....
tick toc frantic....


Asthenia-Blink 182

Last night it came as a picture
With a good reason, a warning sign
This place is void of all passion
If you can imagine it's easy if you try
Believe me I failed this effort
I wrote a reminder this wasn't a vision
This time where are you Houston
Is somebody out there will somebody listen

Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
I hope I won't forget you

My head is made up of memories
Most of them useless delusions
This room is bored of rehearsal
And sick of the boundaries
I miss you so much

Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
This time I don't want to
Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
I hope I won't forget you

Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
This time I don't want to
Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
I hope I won't forget you

Saturday, 10 March 2007

A Great Day...

I think, in life, that one of the greatest things you can do is meet a good friend after sometime. And im not talking about any old friend...I'm talking about one of those friends that laughed with you ,cried with you,fought with you and basically mentored you. Friday happened to be one of those days where i met such a person :). The day didn't start out as what it was meant to be but it ended off how it was meant to! The topics ranged from the mundane to the intellectual and from the easy to the heavy! What would have been a boring friday afternoon stuck on campus waiting turned into a delightful afternoon of catching up and breaking down barriers!All to the sound of progressive trance! THank you my friend, for a great day, a day which i have not had in awhile :)
(btw: despitw what i say you still look younger then i do!). Hehe one day we should do that agen, just don't wait till we old and grey okay


Hehe hey ppl i'm back!Sorry for the long hiatis iys been awhile im sorry Firstly been really busy eish oh well but hopefully il be able to post some this week and start some interesting threads First of all look out for a co -op post coming soon with my fellow gamer MJ i have put it off too long iwe should be posting by the end of following week! So mj hold your horses dude have some sabr!Hmm more on shy looks like i have been beaten to the punch lol have note some developments while not to my liking exactly are encouraging for a friend of mine!Rock on dude i'll have a shot in your name ;-). Hmmm so im back in ladysmith this week coming back to this place is peaceful and i look forward to the peace and the quiet this weekend. Durban is quiet but it lacks the tranquility of this place...The air is still, the insects are a quiet hum, the stars are bright, the sky is clear, the horizon is free, The roads are static. Yeah its definately peaceful :-) lol. There is this tree stump which is in the porch of my house, its flat and about the height of a stool, the top part of the stump is worn smooth and splinters are non existant. The bark on the sides are peeling away to expose the white wood underneath it and its in alot of space facing the entrance of the porch. When i look up into the night skies perched upon this stool, and as i take a long quiet drag from my cigarette and stare at the bright clear skies with all her stars i feel tranquil. The amount of peace derived from there is amazing more so then anywhere else...

Friday, 23 February 2007


Nicknames! Love them or hate them they are there. Some stick some fade into oblivion like a imploded solar sytem scattering to the solar winds. The reasons for thier existence are varied and many and most, but not all, have a reason behind them. As you all have noticed by now my nick is posted on this website. I hate the nick however it has seemed to stick. Often in ladysmith no one is called by thier first names! A fact that durban people cant understand. They often ask us why do you all have nicks? Well see beloved city peole there are a couple of reasons.Being in a small town everyguy knows every other guy often in our groups there are usually two-four people not only with the same names but surnames!Everyone in the town is somehow related! But this is where it gets difficult say mohammed when you are with your friends and four guys instantly wonder which one! Hence each has thier own unique identiflying nick! Also as close knit groups of friends we tend to nick everyone anyways.Here follows a list of some of my nicks over the years

Pizza Man
Parry Hotter

Lol let the comments roll


Yes Finally free time to post YAAAY LOL. Anyways so i have decided to serve you guys up something light and Fluffy an all round post! So the first two weeks of campus have come and gone and i have noted the following. I have had to make new friends! the old crew is gone either all finished or all done bleh so been broading my horizons a bit hanging out with the new ppl (wen i et time that is) And the curse that is v day was done> Agen i am alone sigh. but anyways the first week rely disappointed me for some reason the first yers all seem to be in thier own cliches and refuse to mix with us older folk and i was dissappointed to note that all the pretty muslim girls have not materialised as hoped for!There goes that plan. Cue week two however and first years have invaded my beloved cpffe shop and our groups (although there has been a new huge group of snobby first years formed as always will see how they pan out in second year) LOLbt lo and behold maybe there is one cute still songle good girl around hehe we shall see. Plans back in action lol and hey i started making connections again with new first years so maybe thereis hope for me after all! But unfortunately my fraternising has to stop as i have been confined to the library for most of my free time due to work constraints! Bleh but and this is a big but i will definately make time to see that new person i spotted lol but alas i must move quickly others have noticed as well and as such have begun there plans! Hehe and so begins another year of plotting planning working and maneovuring. Lol and maybe the year the shy girl might open up.In fact i think im going to call this the year of the shy girl!

Friday, 02 February 2007


So who out there enjoys going to the dentist? I thought i did, untill this past week when i went for a teeth cleaning. I realised that as a younger child i was more tolerable and that going to the orthodontist back then was not so bad and i kind of got used to the monthly visits and could stick it no problem but i also figured that if i had too do it now i would cringe quite a bit more! the sound of that cleaning teeth scraping thingy is enough to irritate me, it never hurt so much rather the noise messed me up it was eerie maybe im getting softer as i get older lol. But anyway the dentist i went too is a nice local guy whom i see in the mosque evryday for salaat, now his youngish so as well as fittng in with the old balies he also has cool vibe with the younger guys namely us. This is why i decided to go to him for my teeth cleaning. Lol who would have thought that he could be so menacing in his practice! Don't get me wrong he was just as friendly when i went to see him ,however there was just something about him while i was there that made me think twice! Then i saw him at mosque that same evening again and he was back to normal. While i was on his bench i wondered if i would have been better off going to someone i don't know personally?Perhaps that was the pain talking...

SA is indeed funny

Continuing with my line of SA orientated jokes and such i hvae decided to revel these few gems of signs which are real and found in SA.Say what you want about my countary but it has its humourous side indeed ! Bar the crime and other problems i love the spirit of this countary and if one day i have to skip out im gonna miss its spirt, beauty, humour and uniqe offerings. LOL but in the meanwhile enjoy th SA flavour


LOL i found this picture in my e mail today being a techno geek i enjoyed the pun hey it actually made me laugh out aloud

Thursday, 01 February 2007



A soldier feels no pain
A soldier fears nothing
A soldier does not cry
A soldier obeys without question
A soldier is brave and true
A soldier is willing to do what ever it takes
A soldier protects those that cannot protect themselves
A soldier follows the rules
A soldier has honour
A soldier does not oppress the weak

Ask your self...
What kind of soldier are you?

A jew joke!

In Jerusalem, a female CNN journalist heard about a very old Jewish man who had been going to the Wailing Wall to pray, twice a day, everyday, for a long, long time. So she went to check it out.She went to the Wailing Wall and there he was! She watched him pray and after about 45 minutes, when he turned to leave, she approached him
for an interview.

"I'm Rebecca Smith from CNN. Sir, how long have you been coming to
the Wall and praying?"

"Vor bout 60 years."

"60 years! That's amazing! What do you pray for?"

"I pray vor peace betveen de Christians, Jews ant de Muslims. I pray vor all de hatred to ztop ant I pray vor all our children to grow up in safety ant friendship."

"How do you feel after doing this for 60 years?"

"Like I bin talkingk to a vuckink' vall."

More South African Jokes...

An airplane is flying over the United States at night.
The pilot says: "Ladies and Gentlemen, the plane is losing altitude and all the baggage must be thrown out." A little later, the pilot says "We're still losing altitude, we must throw anything out that is in the cabin". The plane continues its descent despite more things being thrown out.

Pilot: "Still going down - we must throw out some people". There's a big gasp from the passengers!

Pilot: "But to make this fair, passenger will be thrown out in
alphabetical order.

So... A... any Africans on board?" No one moves.

"B... any Blacks on board?"
No one moves.
"C... any Coloureds on board?"
Still, no one moves.
"D... any Darkies?
A little black boy - asks his dad:
"Dad,...what are we?
Dad: " Tonight son, we are Zulus


Fights you gotta hate them! But they pop out of everywhere and at the least oppertune moments.Why do they occur then? I guess it's usually when emotions are stirred and peoples feelings come into play.I guess i have to apologise to someone tommorrow and thrash out everything. But u know this is a time where i appreciate the prophets advice, and that is never go to sleep without resloving an argument. Especially since i can't sleep after fight! I just hope i'll be able to clear everything up.I guess while i am mostly to blame for my current predicament i can also say that im not wholly at fault!However for the sake of sanity i will probably have to admit otherwise...Anyways enough about my rantings you people tell me about some of the worst fights yo'll have had and what happen in the end

Sunday, 28 January 2007


So today i started discussing children with my best friend And we got down to the question of whther we would have the patience and whether or not we would change our personalties or attitudes because of them. For example my friend is not patient!However i believe with the advent of children this will change? But could i be wrong lets hear what you have too say do you think children change us?If so then how? ANd what kinda parent do you think you would make?

For the Jaded

The lead singer of the rock band belts out the last cords of the high energy dark punk song and breathes heavily into the mike...

He stands silent in his jeans pondering his next move...He decides to take it down a notch...he plays the first few cords of a 'quiet rock' ballad and speaks in to the mike...

This song is for the jaded:
for all those who have sat and cried at night
for all those who have vibed but vibe no more
for all those who have cared soo much but are too tired to care anymore
for all those who had something to live for but now have nothing
for all those who carry around the shit in their eyes
for all those whose souls have died when others eyes closed
for all those who feel as the world is against them
for all those who stayed awake in bed late at night thinking
for all those who are so twisted they cant care anymore
for all those who can't try....and for those who don't want to try
for all those who are too bitter to talk sweet anymore

this is a song for the jaded
this is a song for the jaded

Thursday, 25 January 2007

Typical Indian joke

Two guys from Phoenix are driving through Chatsworth Main Road when they get pulled over by traffic cop. The cop walks up and taps the window with his "stok". The driver rolls down the window and THUMMMMP!!!, the cop smacks him in the head with the stick.
The driver asks, " Hey, what kind with u eksè?"
The cop answers, "You're in Chatsworth, laaitjie.
When we pull you over, you better have your license ready when we get to your cab."
"The driver says, "I'm sorry laanie but I'm not from over here, I'm from Phoenix ."
The cop runs a check on the guys license, and he's clean.
He gives the guy his license back, walks around to the passenger side, and taps the window.

The passenger rolls down the window and THUMMMMP!!!, the cop wacks him on the head with the "stok".
The passenger asks, " Hell boss, what you carrying on so shell for?"
The cop says, "Just making your wish come true guzzie ."
The passenger asks, " What you chooning about making my wish come true?"

The cop says, "I know that 2km's down the road from here you're gonna say to your outie ,

"I wish that cop would've tried that sh*t with me , I would have f#cked him up!"

Bush rip off

Hey if anyone follows world politics like i do then they will find the following picture post i recieved hilarious!lol enjoy it i know i did hehe

Sunday, 21 January 2007

Morbid Fun

I discovered some highly amusing death scenes today with stickmen in lively gif animations of dying in interesting gross ways! Brilaint !

Hmmm call me sick but i laugh myself silly at the way these poor stick dudes die and find it insanelt entertaing!

Go to to view these animations .A word of warning though don't be shocked to find anti muslim propoganda and open racism on the site unfortunately the creators of stickdeath are very pro bush and seem like steadfast Hawks however browse some of the older stuff if u want too see it before it got political be warned its hard to stomach tho as much as i enjoyed stickmen dying i couldn't bare to read or view the anti islamic rethoric for very long as such i have not linked the site as they don't deserve it (i usually link interesting sites) HOWEVER IF YOU BRAVE ENOUGH GIVE IT A GO

What's up with this?!

Hmmm now my shariah law might not be fully up to scratch however i do believe that BOTH men and women are not suppose to wear revealing clothes. Now covering the satr is good however the follwing article( which was sent to me by my friend Arshad all credit to him) the picture would still indicate some tightness about the clothing which i know is wrong however dont take it for granted read the following and tell me what you people think:

Burqini: Muslim women's reply to bikini

It's not itsy-bitsy or teenie- weenie but the Burqini may prove to be just as popular as its polka-dotted predecessor.

The modest bathing costume is designed for water-going Muslim women who, because of religious values, cannot show more than their face, hands and feet in public.

A cross between a burqa and a bikini, the polyester suit is made up of pants and a long- sleeved thigh or knee-length A-line top with head covering. It is water-repellent, UV-resistant and comes with Arab designs.

Its Australian designer, Aheda Zanetti, has been swamped with thousands of inquiries about the product from Europe, Britain, the United States, Asia and the Middle East. Zanetti said she started producing the Burqini as Muslim women were missing out on sports because of their dress code.

Ladies Read Well

I was very amused with the following joke mostly beause it had complete role reversal, as usually its the guys trying to do the fooling and the girls doing the catching out.However read and tell me what you people think:

Why females should avoid a girls night out after they are married .....

The other night I was invited out for a night with "the girls". I told my
husband that I would be home by midnight, "I promise!"
Well, the hours passed and the margaritas went down way too easily. Around
3a.m., a bit worse for wear, I headed for home. Just as I got in the door,
the cuckoo clock in the hall started up and cuckooed 3 times.

Quickly, realizing my husband would probably wake up, I cuckooed another 9
times. I was really proud of myself for coming up with such a
quick-witted solution, in order to escape a possible conflict with him.
(Even when totally smashed...3 cuckoos plus 9 cuckoos totals 12 cuckoos =

The next morning my husband asked me what time I got in, and I told him
"Midnight". He didn't seem concerned at all. Whew! Got away with that

Then he said, "We need a new cuckoo clock."

When I asked him why. He said, "Well, last night our clock cuckooed 3
times, then said, "Oh sh*t.", cuckooed 4 more times, cleared its
throat, cuckooed another 2 times, giggled, Cuckooed twice more, and then
tripped over the coffee table and farted.

Monday, 08 January 2007

I'm Gangster!

This entire week i have been addicted to my brothers psp playing a little game called GTA:Vice City Stories. Over he week i have become the owner off prostitution,drug, money laundering, racket rings. Hehe i earn 40100 $ per a day not bad hehe. Hmmm i love the feeling of walking onto the road picking a car hijacking it and driving it like its mine (kinda like SA think the developers must have visited SA) LOL. You have got to love it for once being a bad guy is fun!I have been addicted to the GTA series ever since GTA 3 and have been loving every minute of it. Hey where else do i get to beat passer by's to death witha baseball bat. Brilliant stress relief if you ask me.ANd since Vice city stories is set during the 80's i have been doing all of this to the sound of Foreigner- I wanna know what love is! Lol you have got to love it

A comment

I came up with the following during a late night musing i think its a brilliant piece of advice for everything all rolled up into one. Pretty good even if i d say so myself

'expect nothing,but accept the possibilty that there may be something'

Tuesday, 02 January 2007

The Two New years

Hmm this new years was a strange one for me it made me contemplate quite a bit.

Firstly too all my muslim friends, brothers, sisters Eid Mubarak and too everyone happy new years.

This new years was one of the first that i had stayed home in a long time and it was strange. Part of me could not sit still i felt restless like i had to be somewhere and doing something. Yet the fact that it was a big night stayed my hand. However why did sitting at home seem so hard?I felt caged even. I read about the muslim people who had eid and that night went to the square in jhb for the new years baash and part of me was disgusted but the other half hugely envious. Howcome they got to go out and i had to sit at home? It's truly a conflicting feeling. No to mention the fact that i had just watched a huge party on tv to usher in the new years. A rave party too? Maybe it didn't feel like eid this year cos well there was no sheep.

I don't know about you people but the no cutting thing doesn't agree with me. I enjoy the toul of cutting at home and working the whole morning and resting finally in the evening. And i missed qurbani meat for Lunch! :-(

but i digress did anone feel the same as i did on that eid night?


Hey one and all am back hehe sorry bout the long break twas on holiday!hehe sp posting been slow lol